alhamdulillah...
hidup bella sekarang walau pun belum selesai sepenuhnya kes dengan didi... ada sedikit rasa lega... mungkin sebab bella dah buat keputusan muktamad... insyaAllah... bella cuba selesaikan tahun nih... doakan bella ye...
bukan bella tidak sayang pada ikatan perkahwinan ni...tipu la kalau tidak sayang... 5 tahun hidup sebagai suami isteri... 9tahun bersama...byk susah dan senang...byk airmata mahupun gelak tawa yang ada... mana mungkin dilupakan... cuma, didi tidak berubah.... kesal rasa di hati... peluang demi peluang di beri...bermula tahun kedua perkahwinan..sehingga saat bella memohon dilepaskan...
ye, ada yang akan cakap... lama nya bertahan..bodoh nye.... bagi diri bella, setiap orang ada kisah silam.. baik atau buruk kisah mereka..terpulang... setiap orang berhak di beri peluang.. tapi ye la..nama pun manusia... mudah lupa...tewas pada nafsu...
anda tidak berada di tempat bella... anda tidak tahu sepenuhnya kisah ini...anda tidak rasa apa bella rasa..apa bella hadapi... bukan satu perasaan dan hati bella perlu jaga...seboleh bolehnya bella tidak mahu melukakan hati sesiapa... terutama ibu ayah mak mertua...cukupla ayah bella menitiskan airmata di hari akad nikah bella... bella tidak mahu dia menitiskan airmata kerana perpisahan bella dan didi....
alhamdulillah, hidup bella sekarang nih... gembira..bella sibukkan dengan kerja,.. sementelah bella akan mengetuai satu projek besar di hujung tahun nih... dengan menunggu panggilan interview untuk sambung belajar... macam2 la yang akan berlaku dalam hidup bella... doakan yang baik2 yer...maaf la... sebenarnya, bella bukan sambung master... tapi phd... malu nak bagitahu semua orang...bella meneruskan impian bella...impian arwah bonda bella...insya Allah...
ramadhan hampir muncul.... semoga ramadhan ini lebih bermakna....ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan....
hi bella,
ReplyDeletecongratulations, what la you don't be shy, i think it is great that you are continuing a phd study. all the best. it will tough but you can do it!
this is just my opinion, and i dont say this to hurt you. but you feel so much remorse over the break up of your marriage even though it was your ex who broke it. you carried so much shame and trying to make him happy when he didnt do the same for you. it's so unfair, because you are a victim of circumstances, and yet you are made guilty for his behavior. he is never made accountable for what he did. we put men on such high places that they could do no wrong, and when they do, women get blamed for it.
it's not your fault bella. you did the best you could but there is a limit to everything. you too, deserved to be loved by a man who will fight to death like you will.
sending you lots and lots of positive vibes.
thank u dear... its gonna be tough and the journey wont be as easy as we think... tomorrow will be my interview session...hopefully i pass it...
Deletehopefully, one fine day.. i will meet some one who can be by my side thru every situation... thru sadness..happy..laugh..tears...aamiin!!!
thank u for always be there and give positive vibes!!!
tahniah bella. hepy dgr bella nk smbung phd. :) keep fight bella
ReplyDeletedoa2 kan ye semoga dpt sambung... tapi buat part time je...mengisi masa lapang... menyambung cita-cita....
Deleteterima kasih... heheheh
bella.. congrats!
ReplyDeleteada hikmah atas semuanya.. all the best dari eva :)
u go girl..
thank u eva...aamiin!! its not easy to forget everything..but i have too...
Deletefighting!!